March 20, 2008
4:37 PM:
empty
burn away
my desire
for anything
that is not of you
and is of me
'cause i want more of you
and less of me
empty me
empty me
and fill
won't you fill me
with you
with you
Nothing wise to say lately. Struggling a little. Sometimes a lot.
I'm learning lately about what it really means to be emptied. Maybe I'm being emptied... a little, anyway. I want it... but I wish I wanted it more. But Josh wants it, and watching that has been humbling. Sometimes really amazing, but sometimes hard. Ultimately, I do want to come second. But I am sometimes selfish, and in the little moments, I can't help it. My flesh wants to come first.
I'm learning lately about what it really means to be emptied. Maybe I'm being emptied... a little, anyway. I want it... but I wish I wanted it more. But Josh wants it, and watching that has been humbling. Sometimes really amazing, but sometimes hard. Ultimately, I do want to come second. But I am sometimes selfish, and in the little moments, I can't help it. My flesh wants to come first.
I can relate to that--I want to, but I really just want to want to.
Big hugs! Love you!
I really just want to too..